To-do lists – I love them, I am guided by them and they organize my life. Yes, I am one of those dorks who loves to list what I have to do for the day, the month or even the year and feel a sense of satisfaction when I get to cross out the listed item. Sometimes my lists have sub-lists and they even look like flow charts. I think I love the predictability of being organized and the security of being structured, always knowing what is the plan and the future.
One vacation my husband taught me a valuable lesson in living in the moment. We had one scheduled place to visit on a two-week vacation but the rest of the time we were just going to wing it and go where we felt led. This was a scary proposition for me. I like plans and predictability. There would be no booking of hotels, no scheduling sight-seeing tours or excursions. The plan was there would be no plan. Keep in mind we were planning a no plan vacation with three small children. I was a bit terrified.
Guess what? That vacation was one of the best family vacations that we took all together. We visited some great places, found some last-minute places to stay and I really enjoyed each day because I wasn’t stressed over future plans or schedules. The unpredictability of each day was fun and exciting.
I started to think about this vacation recently because I still often get bogged down by plans and the future. It seems I am always trying to figure out my future. What does God have in store for my life? I am always looking for an open door or a door to close. So many times I have read Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. How many times have I read that asking God to show me His plan for my life? Then I realized the other day that I am living God’s plan for my life.
Just like that un-planned vacation taught me that winging it and living in the moment can actually be fun – so is the life God had given me now. Stop worrying about the future. Just enjoy the time God had given me right now in all the things and the people He has given me to enjoy. Live in the moment and stop worrying so much about plans.
Now don’t get me wrong. I haven’t given up my “to-do” lists or my love of predictable schedules. Those things are just who I am and reflect my personality. However, God wants me to stop living for the future. He has given me this time (right now) and He knows my future, already, so why should I stress over it? I don’t want to look back and say why didn’t I enjoy the time I had back when…? It’s not easy letting go and just enjoying the ride of life even with its unpredictable ups and downs. However, I am learning that letting go is actually learning to enjoy life day by day as God intended for me all along.